Random Letter #1
18/3/2025, 12:something am

    so umm ana kont a3ed m3 el 3yal and i couldnt help but see that i struggle to talk to them, its been a problem with me and i felt it for what it felt like forever bs i remembered that i didnt feel the same way when i was with u, but it got me thinking about how shallow(?) ppl are?
like dont get me wrong theyre my friends and i love them dearly but there is only so much you can talk about with an egyptian person, studying? football? women?
like yah theyre are fun conversations and i enjoy them a lot but i couldnt stop feeling like our convos the other day are way better, like there is something about u that i cant stop thinking about, i feel like i want to share everything with u since the very moment i wake up every day, i feel like i find little pieces of you in everything i love(a new tv show i love, a new music track i enjoy, something i read in a book or online)(not in a weird obsession way but in a genuine fascination way)(im not a creep i swear)
i am fascinated by you ya menna, i love the way you live life, i love the way you keep having new experiences, and i love the amount of love you have in your heart towards everything you enjoy, i love how interested you are in everything and how interesting you are
you are by far the most interesting person i have ever met in my entire life and im almost sure that im never meeting a more interesting person than you, i love how (in ways u are aware of or not) you make me live life more, i have started to feel like i want to experience more out of life, i want to connect with more ppl, join more fandoms, try things i wouldnt dare to try, reveal my true self to the ones closest to me, get more out of life than idk some grades or the same old 2 interests over and over again (habiby ya sonic w ya kid cudi), i want to experience more feelings, get to know myself and others more
i know you might think that this message is sudden or it came out of nowhere, but i feel like lately i havent been expressing my love for you enough, to be fair even if i spent the rest of my life telling you how much i love you it still wouldnt be close to enough
our relationship is one of, if not my greatest achievement of all time, i mean ofc sometimes life sucks and we don't get the chance to see each other enough, but it makes me appreciate and treasure the time we spend together that much more and im sorry for the times i made you feel uncomfortable or put you in an unwanted position even if my intentions were pure, but i hope we can put everything behind us and move on with our lives because i do not want to live a life that doesnt have you in it.
i love you ya menna, you're my one true friend, my secret-keeper, the closest person to me, and my everything
  - S


(ps. 1- click on the letter pic for a tiny lil playlist - the first song is very special to me)

(ps. 2- wanted to write more bs its getting late and im sleepy and will probably leave some for my next letter)